Frustration

I know how this works, so I'm trying not to get too worked up. Still, my last few days have been VERY solid. My eating has been right on, and I've been much more active. For example, yesterday I spent about 90 minutes in my driveway pounding through snow and ice that had been sitting there for a week. It was not easy stuff. It went way beyond just shoveling. I was hammering, digging, drilling...working.

On top of that, I got a few sets of push ups and leg raises in.

It was a good enough workout that I was so sore I was unable to sleep well last night. So, I assumed I'd wake up and see a nice drop from yesterday. I was not so lucky.

I was 304 yesterday, 304.8 today.

Now, I know that with all my soreness, I am likely retaining some water to help repair my damaged muscles. So, I'm trying not to panic too much, or let it get to me too much. That said, when you're really starting to get back into things, and your first day is such a colossal defeat, it's tough to keep your focus.

But I'm keeping my focus. My goal is to eat 100% clean between now and the beginning of our move on Thursday morning. I want to eat as clean as possible on the trip itself, though it gets tougher to do so when you're driving for 20 hours with 2 kids, a dog, and a 26' moving truck.

My hope is that I can be back out of the 300's by Thursday morning. Gaining almost a pound is not the way to start things, but it's just one day. As frustrating as it is, I'll wait for tomorrow to start pulling what hair I have left out of my head.

Struggling

I won't be long, as I don't think anybody is even reading this. Here are some talking points:

1. Still over 300. Just lost all focus, and am trying to tread water.
2. Our new house in Denver comes with a free gym membership. I'll be using it.
3. In Colorado, it's 60+ several days a week, even in February. I'll be outside a lot.
4. I'm back to the push ups today. Also doing nothing but fruit and veggies for food.

I really need to get my butt in gear.

Holidays are Gone. Weight's Back

Well, I jacked myself up pretty bad over the holidays. It was the perfect storm of stress, anxiety, and holiday cooking.

The truth is, I haven't cared about my weight the last few weeks. Food has been my comfort through all of the issues we've been dealing with. Especially these late-night cravings I get. Man, those are killer.

Long story short, I'm doing what I can to get my focus back. I'm going to get more active. I'm going to keep the calories in check. I'm going to stop eating at 9pm. Long term, I'm hoping that once we get settled in Denver that I can get into some boxing or MMA classes, assuming we can find room in our budget.

We're moving on the 29th of this month. That's 25 days away. My goal is to drop 12 pounds from today's DISGUSTING weigh-in by the morning I hop into that moving truck. That would mean that I need to be at - here it comes - 292.0 that morning.

Yes, I've shot back up over 300 pounds for the first time since June of 2007. Not the place to be. But I won't be here long. In fact, I'm hoping to be out of the 3's by Wednesday.

Sorry for the delay in posting. I hope I still have some readers out there.